Relief. Sadness. Disappointment. Longing. Acceptance.
Ahh...what a myriad of emotions. Was I being an idiot? Some say, the signs are obvious and are for all to see. Perhaps I was blind. Perhaps I wanted to be blind. Wise people once said, Hope was the worst thing that came out of Pandora's Box. I'm inclined to agree.
Regret. Bitterness. Malice. Anger.
Such pettiness...such idiocy. May I never succumb to those. Given the same choices and opportunities, I'd still do what I did. Maybe I'm just stupid. Maybe I'm just naive.
I'm trying to put on a brave face but I can't deny the truth. I am sad, but I'm not bitter. I am disappointed though I have no regrets. Despite the situation, I'm not angry nor do I have malice in my heart. There is a sense of relief as I'm no longer somewhere in between. I don't think the longing will ever go away completely. Above all though, there is a sense of acceptance. Perhaps this is how it's supposed to be.
Thank you for the memories. Thank you for those moments of happiness. Thank you for making me feel alive.
May happiness envelop this garden of clarity, purity and nobility.
The dice has rolled. The decision has been made. This chapter is now closed. It's time to begin a new one. Have a good life.
